Life is a Roller Coaster..
It’s getting harder and harder for me to enjoy anything at all these days as I am always so obnoxiously aware of the fact that every moment is fleeting and any bit of happiness I may find myself in at the time will dissolve just as quickly as it came. I feel like I could use some of the Pacific Ocean to wash this all away.
Anyways, life on the road was all the greatest things and the worst at the same time! J and I fell in love with the life and soaked in every moment.. hanging out late. partaking in a little parlaying.. girls.. coffee.. cigarettes.. the whole bit- and then we got to rock, every fucking night. “If there is a heaven- certainly this must be it” I remember thinking. Like a dream- and just as quickly as I had found my place there, I find myself back here in this dark dingy room in my hometown writing this sad reflection of my current state of affairs . Swallowed by self-doubt and insecurity but still grasping at whatever whisps of hope I can manage it seems as if all the light that shined so bright the last 3 months has hastily burned off. We have been back for about a week or so and since it has seemed like a constant shit storm. Repairing the bus cost about $2500 bucks (New Transmission) overall and tore a gaping whole in our savings that never did end up getting patched. Credit cards are maxed and bank accounts are still overdrawn and in an effort to keep momentum in LA we are pushing on with plans to move there- despite being broke as can be. Also, Unfortunately it seems somewhere along the way Ryan and Josh lost faith in the music and to add insult to injury promptly bailed on all of our plans for a bigger and brighter future in the US work force. well.. may the force be with them, Monkeys In Space will keep on trekkin and I wish them the best in all of their future endeavors… Ok people told me this required some explanations so here it is.. Josh is merely 19 and fresh out of High School I think we through a bit too much at him too quick- being so young he still has many roads to travel before arriving at any conclusions about where he should be in his life.. and hes definitely got at least another 2 years of fucking off altogether. We get that! Shit, at 25 the only thing I have figured out is that the Monkeys are ALL I give a shit about. Ryan on the other hand was a serious letdown that is hard to swallow- but we all knew it was a matter of time. Things got a bit shady with him towards the end and he began to sabotage more than help.. We have been best friends for almost 15 years and I am literally heartbroken over having to say goodbye to him and the way it went down.. without a sound. This was his life for three years and he left without fighting for us at all- which was a clear indication he had checked out long ago. I suppose these are the type of things that are better left unsaid on a public forum, but everyone has been asking and I have never been one to hold my tongue. Hopefully someday Ryan and I will be able to be friends again, but I learned long ago he puts little stock in friendship, so..
..and So we returned with plans to write and record our “Appetite for Destruction,” if you will and we fully intend on seeing this plan through. It seems as if we will be doing this record the same way we did Flying Under the Influence.. Countless hours in a tiny hot room with sketchy power and even sketchier duct-taped-together equipment tracking every thought in our poor brains! Honestly, I am quite excited and relieved as Monkeys In Space has always been J and I’s vision and we have always felt as if we were dragging the other two along (and for the most part, have had to record their parts between the two of us). I guess it’s time to give up the idea of four best friends from childhood taking over the world.. but hey- 2 best friends holding it down for the hometown- I am most certainly content with. J and I have an uncanny ability to get on the same wave length musically and write with one another. You can literally feel the magic- and the lyrics and music seem to just poor out. This record is gonna be our masterpiece. We have already spent about a week working on some preproduction and it is coming along better then we could have ever imagined. With Deez Drucker, the brother of our long time friend Josh Drucker filling in on the kit and Josh Smith stickin around to fullfil some commitments- with a fresh face in KC Kush for that hip hop edge- we are creating some great new music that is really shaping up to be Mi$’s sound. So I suppose among a rather dreary post there does seem to be a bit of light breaking through and by the end of the month Josh Drucker will be up to help us track the new songs before we take off to LA to PUSH PUSH PUSH the new record. Peter Nudo (www.peternudo.com) has signed on to do the new album cover work again and we are pumped on that!
Hear the latest track off our upcoming record and after reading this you should know exactly what Hate Hate Everything is about. It’s a surprisingly upbeat tune with our usual “down but not out” lyrical content like “Constipate, Recalculate, believe so hard its sacrilege, fuck the cow- you bought the farm and now you dont know what to do with it…” I continue to live my life as an open book and tell all.. Hope that doesn’t come back to bite me in the ass.. but people are so fucking fake these days I find it refreshing to be able to just SAY ANYTHING. I feel as if you can almost feel and hear the doubt and hope simultaneously in our voices as we shout the Chorus “You know i’ve been hanging around, oh and everyones bringin me down” Hope you enjoy it.. and can relate.. and hang on.
Well to be fair.. my state of affairs are not all that bad after all- Ray Roman just completed the 4 part miniseries chronicling our tour adventures and he did an amazing job! The band now has some IMDB credits and a brand spanking new DVD coming out with live show footage, interviews, behind the scenes debauchery and much much more! Can’t thank you enough Ray for sorting all that out.. it means the world to us. Ray spent about a full month sorting through 100+ gigs of Iphone Footage we managed to shoot ourselves while we were out. Show some love and see why i found my heaven in a Ford Shuttle Bus.
Check out all Four Parts:
We have met with a few record labels and are currently working hard on getting our record heard on our terms. As soon as we can afford it we are gonna start an advertising/marketing campaign to promote the new tracks.. even if it leaves us in the poor house- at least we will be there together and we will have our guitars as they will have to pry those from our cold dead hands! We are unwilling to budge on the dreams and believe me when I say we pay the price every day.. but I literally dont think I am qualified to do anything else and I fuckin love it.. i need it!
We will be rocking Typhoon Saloon this Friday May 18th in the heart of Pacific Beach with Latex Grenade- its gonna be an insane rock n’ roll party.. You dont want to miss this! We will be performing several new songs including Pretty Rock City and Rock and Blow.. Looking at those two titles together it sounds like we are becoming KISS but you’ll just have to come out and see what thats all about!
Until next time.. this is.. RukkusRAW
Tour Tip #313 Don’t “date” strippers from Vegas.. Just DONT.
This entry was posted on May 15, 2012 by jrukkus. It was filed under Life in Orbit, Media, My Shittt!, News and was tagged with Flying Under the Influence Tour, Johnny Rukkus, jrukkus, Mi$, MonkeyMayhem Productions, Monkeys In Space, Monkeys In Space new recor, RukkusRaw.